Blessed
Truly.
Clarence Ong
17
14 July 1994
" For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. "
Romans 8 : 18
Tuesday, March 08, 2011, 4:39 AM
I wondered, if you would ever spend your time, sitting there,
just thinking what it'd be like if you could just go back.
Back to when it mattered.
And just imagine a movie playing in your mind,
a movie of us, of what we would have found.
Where you'd still listen to every overly sensitive thought I had,
of every sensitive view I saw,
and then later mock and laugh at my little thoughts.
Which unknowingly had helped me find comfort in the mess I was in,
and at the wreck I was.
Painting an image of what our lives might have been like,
while dorkishly smiling at myself.
Only then to realize that I was just dreaming,
peeking through to a place and time that never existed,
wishing it had.
Then again you probably wouldn't,
But if you would ever even wonder,
I would tell you that I did.
And yeah, I still do.
If only you would wonder...
Sunday, February 20, 2011, 4:34 AM
" Don't be too hard on my emotions. "I'm such a difficult person aren't I?
Pressing too hard on every single note
you people play so carelessly.
Maybe some day,
someone will understand why i behave the way i do.
" I'll try to be Strong, Believe me I'm trying to move on. It's complicated but understand me. "
Ranting and Lamenting,
but yet so indifferent.
Know that I know every single time I had hurt you,
and it hurts me just as well.
I'd pray and I apologize,
just so that maybe you'd swallow,
and clear this fog that we've just been stuck in.
And hopefully look past all my imperfections,
My messy thoughts and my fears,
To see that I never wanted to hurt anyone.
" I really wanna start over again, I know you wanna be my salvation, The one that I can always depend. "
And to you!
Wonderful and Glorious friend.
Sometimes just your presence is hard to bear,
And your words like pins and needles to my heart.
But I'm so happy that in this life,
I had gotten the chance to know you.
You have taught me so much,
Yet I've still so much to learn.
Thank you For the ride,
it has and will always be wonderful to ride with you.
Thank you For the music,
For the joy,
For the peace,
And Thank you for the Patience.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010, 4:04 AM
Those Who Are Dead, Are Not Dead,
They're Just Living In My Head.
-Coldplay
I've Been Living In My Head Haven't I?
How Many will Ever Know Of How It Feels To Be Stuck There,
For Years.
I Guess, Thats Just How We Discover Ourselves.
But In This Life Of Self Discovery,
I'd Rather Not Have Had Discovered Things,
That Are So Sick About Myself.
Wednesday, July 07, 2010, 9:15 PM
Even Though I Know You You Didn't Mean To.But Thats What It Felt Like.
I'm Sorry I Couldn't Help But React That Way At That Point Of Time.
I'm Still Hurt Now.
But I'm Going To Move On I Guess.
Just Felt I Needed To Write This Somewhere.
Thursday, December 24, 2009, 2:36 AM
" Somethings, I Still Miss Every Now And Then. "But It Has Already Passed.
Maybe.Life.Changes.
Tuesday, December 15, 2009, 6:39 PM
And She Said," Too Much Free Time Clearly Isn't Healthy For Anyone's Mind. "
How True. Most Honest Sentence I've Heard In Weeks.
FUCK.THIS.EMOTIONAL.MESS.TANTRUM.ANNOYING.MINDFUCKING.SHUT UP.SCREW.SHATTER.THIS.PERIOD.HELL.GETTING.THE.FUCKOUT.
Thursday, November 26, 2009, 12:35 AM
Halfway Into The Holidays Already,Though I Spent The Last Three Weeks Studying.
Life,
Clearly Isn't Treating Me As Well As It Could.
But That Really Isn't Anything Strange.
Sometimes I Try So Hard To Change Things,
But In The End,
It Always Turns Out To Be The Same As It Was Before.
But At least I'm Sure Now Of What I Want.
Just Unsure Of Whether I'm Ever Getting It.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009, 9:07 PM
Today Was...Extraordinary.
Really,
It Was Horrible Too.
But I'm Kinda Glad Today Happened.
Kinda Guess I Really Got Some Things Off My Chest.
But Then Again It'd Make Me Hate Myself Even More.
I Hate Myself.
Damn. It Has Already Started.
CHEER UP CLARENCE.
ROCKK ON.
Yes! WHOOOO~
not.
Today Made Me Realize Something Important Too.
I Forgot That The Reason I Want Something,
Should Not Be Because I Must Have It.
But Simply Because I Purely Want It.
Goodnight, Goodluck.
Sunday, August 30, 2009, 1:28 AM
I Thought I Had Left It Behind,But I Find Myself
Looking Back Once Again,
So I Guess In The End,
Nothing Really Changes At All.
I Saw Things, See Things That probably No One Sees.
Its Not A Ghost Or A Miracle, But Something Much Stranger.
But It Left Me To Question What All The Good In The World Was Worth,
If There Was Nobody That Appreciated It.
Other Times It Leaves Me To Question,
Where Was I Looking At, Always Seeing These Things.
Cause They Arent The Most Pleasant Things That You'd Wanna See.
" So Pray For Me Child, Just for Awhile
That I Might Break Out Yeah
Pray For Me Child
Even A Smile Would Do For Now. "
-Damien Rice
Monday, August 03, 2009, 6:21 PM
I Cant Change The Way I Think.But Sometimes Its So Much Easier,
To Be Someone Else.
Just Makes Me Wonder If,
Its My Fault I'm Different.
Because This World Doesn't
See Things The Way I Do,
Does Anyone Thinks As Much As I Do?
What A Shallow World.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 10:39 PM
Because Today,I Could Help But Wake Up Expecting
A Little More Out Of This Day.
But Thats The Sad Thing,
To Realize That Today
Might Be Another Disappointment,
And It Was.
And Then You Walk Home Feeling,
A Little Extra Crushed Than Usual.
A Little Extra Disappointed Than Always.
Roll Me Over.
Sunday, July 12, 2009, 3:35 PM
I Guess, At The End Of It All,
I Just Realized,
That Even Waiting Was Pointless.
Maybe The Time Wasn't Right,
Maybe I Came On Too Strong.
But I Guess Now It Doesn't Matter
Whether I Was Right Or Wrong,
Cause Its Over Now,
And I Think That Makes Me Happier.
I Think,
Somewhere In Between,
I Just Lost Track Of,
What It Was All Ever For.
I Cant Hide The Fact That It Hurts,
And I'm Sad Right Now,
But I Believe It'll Pass One Day
And Life Will Be Back The Way It Was,
Just Hopeless.
Tuesday, July 07, 2009, 5:28 PM
For In The Willingness To Do It for Others, I Found Someone Who'd Do It For Me.Thank You.
Saturday, June 06, 2009, 9:31 PM
"Underneath The Stars"Floating Here Like This With You
Underneath The Stars Aligned
For 13 Billion Years The View Its Beautiful
And Ours Alone Tonight
Underneath The Stars
Spinning Round And Round With You
Watching Shadows Melt The Light
So Shinning From Our Eyes A Tear
Another Space Is Ours Alone Tonight
Watch As Shadows Melt
The Waves Break
The Waves Break
Whisper In My Ear A Wish
We Could Drift Away So Far
Your Voice Inside Of My Head Like This It's Infinite
The Hours Alone Tonight,
We Could Drift Away
Flying Here Like This With You
Underneath The Stars Aligned
For 13 Billion Years The View Its Beautiful
And Ours Alone Tonight Underneath The Stars
(Everything Is Gone)
Everything Gone... Still To...
Together As Now
For Ever As One
In Each Others Arms
So Near So Far
Forever And Now
Underneath The Stars
As The Waves Break
-The Cure
Beautiful. The Dept And Heaviness Of This Song Will Make You Fall Right Into It. It'll Melt Your Hearts, Like It Did Melt Mine.
Finally, This Is The Cure.
Friday, June 05, 2009, 12:55 AM
Haven't Posted Since Forever.But Once Again It Is Far Too Heavy To Carry,
And I Wish I Could Give Away This Heart,
Cause It Always Hurts.
I Feel Soo...
Lost Once Again,
Not Sure About What I Have Been Holding On To For These Past 6 Months.
I Really Do Love Her.
But I Doubt She Feels The Same Towards Me.
I Dont Wanna Lose This,
But At The Rate We're Going Its Already Over.
I Just Wished,
Wished We Had More Time Together.
I Just Wanna Fucking Scream Now-
Sunday, May 03, 2009, 1:44 AM
" Is this the New Year or just another night?Is this the new fear or just another fright?
Is this the new tear or just another desperation? "
-Switchfoot
Sometimes, It Just Makes Me Wonder,
How Everything Could Seem So Pointless, So Meaningless.
And At The End Of The Day You Just Lay There,
Wondering About What A Waste Of Time And Effort Today Was,
About How Everything You Do Seems So...
Sad And So Desperate.
I Can't Help But Wonder Sometimes,
Why Am I Still Living Today?
I'm Not Wishing for Alot,
I Just Want To Live for Something Really,
Real.
Cause God, It Feels So Empty Right Here.
Thursday, April 16, 2009, 10:09 PM
Its So Bottled Up,Every Emotion Inside Of Me Is Raging Now.
The Air Is Tense And Heavy At Every Moment,
Feels As If Breathing Was Going To Be So Exhausting.
Somehow It Hurts Now,
And It Should Not At All.
And These Feelings Are True,
So Why Does It Feel So Difficult To Keep Up,
With These Emotions, With Myself.
Hang Me Now.
Sunday, April 12, 2009, 7:03 PM
http://tonightsucide.myminicity.com/-Please Visit Often, It Grows With Each Visit.
Wednesday, April 01, 2009, 7:35 PM
"You're Just A Sad Song,With Nothing To Say,
About A Life Long,
Wait For A Hospital Stay.
Well If You Think That I'm Wrong,
Then This Never Meant Nothing To Ya."
What Was I Thinking,
Nobody Else Would Be As Lonely As Me.
No One At All.
Need MCR, Now.
Thursday, March 26, 2009, 5:31 PM
"And Life Goes On..... That Is, Until We End It..."Had Really Weird Dreams And Troublesome Thoughts This Month,
Haven't Had Much Inspiration To Smash The Keyboard And Blog Much Either.
I Need More Sleep, Its Seems To Be The Only Thing That Keeps Me From Feeling,
So Heavy, So Tight And So Dead.
Quoted This From A Lifehouse Song I'm Listening To Now,
"Guess You're The Only One, That Nobody Changes."
Finding Someone Like That, I'd Really Love To.
And Thanks Nwit, For The Gift. It Really Brightened Up My Bleak Day.
Thursday, February 12, 2009, 4:35 PM
"I'm Sorry. I Was A Little Too Desperate, A Little Too Sad, Tired And A Little Too Emotional That Night. Sorry."Hey If You're Reading This...
I'm Sorry. That Must Have Killed Everything.
I Was A Little Depressed That Night. =/
Haven't Posted In A Long Time. Lots Of Things Had Happened. Life's Pretty Much Like A Train Wreck Now, I've Gotten Into Counseling, Just Screwed Up Badly On Something, Found Out I'm A Little Depressed And Now Days, I've Gotten Like Ten Times More Emotional, Moody Then Before. And Yup, Realized I'm Preetty Crazzzyy Now. Its Like I've Just Got The Periods Or Something. Pretty Fucked Up Now.
And I'm Addicted To Kill Hannah Now. Its Like A Drug That Screws Up My Brain Over And Over. Should Really Stop Listening But Its Just So Relieving! Argh. =(
And I've Got A New Pink Phone. Gay Huh? Yeah.. Well Fuck You.
Thursday, January 08, 2009, 8:39 PM
What A Strange View,Everyone Stands Cheering,
For Their Saviour, Their Hope.
Reaching For Their Chance At Redemption,
One That I Still Cannot Accept.
For Some Reason,
My Past Flashed,
All The Painful Things - Remembered.
And That Joy Everyone Around Me Had,
Synced With My Idea Of Salvation For A Moment.
I Tried Hard And Held My Tears Back.
But After That It Disappeared,
And Then I Realised,
That This Joy Did Not Belong To Me.
And That Someone As Ugly As Me,
Would Not Last Long In This Beautiful Belief.
Alteast Not Now.
-Clarence
Wednesday, December 24, 2008, 3:19 AM
" Oh Please Don't Tell Me You Understand, Cause I Know You Don't. And Don't Tell Me You Care, Cause Its Just So Damn Convenient Now. "I Wish I Was Emotionless.
I'm So Tired Of Feeling Everything.
All My Thoughts, My Fears, My Anger And Disappointment
I Wish They'd All Fly Away.
So At Least There Would One Less Miserable Soul Left On Earth.
Maybe I Should Bring Plates With Faces On Them,
Everywhere I Go.
So I Don't Have To Express Anymore.
Nor Pretend That I'm Feeling Something Else.
Just Place The Plate In Front Of My Face.
Tell Everyone How I'm Feeling,
Without Having To Stress The Point.
And When I Do This,
It Means I'm Happy/Satisfied For That Rare Moment.
This Means That I Have Nothing To Say,
"What?"
"Sigh."
"Argghhhhhh..."
This Is "Oh, WHAT THE FUCK!"
Yup, Needed To Use That Expression.
"Shut It, Or Die."
Yup, That Would Be Nice.
Realized This Is Rather A Happy Post.
Ha, Guess I'm Not Such A Sad Being.
-Clarence
Saturday, November 22, 2008, 2:32 AM
Self Deceiving Hurts.
I Can Tell You Cause I Know How It Feels.
And I've Been Trying To Look The Other Side,
But Sometimes It Gets So Difficult.
And Other Times It Feels As Though
I'm Pretending To Be Someone I'm Not.
We Live To Suffer,
But You Told Me That Some People Live High.
I'm Sorry, I Guess That I Am Just The Kind Of
Person Who Lives Low And Cries Over It.
While Others Are Able To Let Go Of Things,
Things Which I Seem To Grasp So Easily.
I Guess People Like Me Can't Change. I Was Given Life With This, And The Mind Is Poison. I Listened To The New Killers Album And Its Good. Not Excellent, But Good.
-Clarence
Friday, November 21, 2008, 2:40 AM
I Believe I Have Found Someone.Someone Worth Looking Forward To,
Someone That May Be Able To Make My Heart Beat Once Again,
Someone I Wanna See,
Someone I Wanna Wait For,
Someone That I Hope Thinks Alike,
Someone That Hopefully, Yearns For Me Too.
And That Someone Hopefully, May Be,
Someone That Is Strong Enough To Be A Reason Worth,
Looking Forward To Living Each Day For.
But For All I Know, I May Just Be A Fool. Wishing It Would Be Cherries And Pies. And That Never Happens, Now Does It?
-Clarence
Thursday, November 20, 2008, 12:01 AM
nipple nipple. damn hilarious XD
-Isaac
Saturday, November 15, 2008, 12:30 AM
Telling Me About Him, Smiling In A Way That I Could Never Make You.
Had You No Idea How Much It Hurt Me Inside,
How Slowly You Were Killing Me.
Maybe It Was My Cover,
My Unchanging Expressions.
But Now He Is Gone,
And Back To Me You Came.
But Others Could Never Leave You Alone,
And I Guess I Just Wasn't Good Enough.
It Was Their Attitudes That Captured You,
Intentions Unknown.
Guess What I Was Trying To Say,
And That I Always Wanted To Say,
Was That ifuckinghadfeelingstoo.
Maybe It Was Me. I Never Had The Courage To Tell You, That I Wanted To Be With You. That I Loved You.
And Time Has Only Proved to Me That, Anything That Lasts, Will Be Broken Eventually.
-Clarence
Thursday, October 23, 2008, 7:38 PM
"But It's Over Now, Go On And Take A Bow."-Rhianna
Its Over,
Not Only The Year But Everything Else,
Okay Not Everything,
But Its Still Over,
Finished,
Done,
Yeah.
Glad To Say I'm Back Into Dating,
Hooking Up And All That Shit.
It Was Just Not Worth The Wait I Guess.
Everyone Was Right, And As Always I Took Too Long To Realise.
It May Not Be What I'm Looking For , But At least I'm Having Fun.
And Trust Me, I Did Not Steal That Line From The Click Five.
Of Course,
Alike Everyone Else,
I Had Regrets.
Things I Wished I Tried Harder To Do.
And Its More Than Just My Studies.
Things I Wished I Found Much Sooner.
Well At Least It's Over.
-Clarence
Thursday, October 16, 2008, 7:19 PM
WELCOME TO HELL!Can't Say I Wasn't Expecting To Wind Up There.
Results Are Crap Definitely, Heard Disturbing Things.
But I'm Ready To Move On, And Face Whatever Life Throws At Me.
And Maybe I'll Be Miserable Once Again.
But I'll Pick Myself Up, Alone.
For I Can't Rely On God As I Have An Ambition,
An Ambition Known To God As Sin.
-Clarence
Saturday, October 11, 2008, 6:24 PM
Went out with Janice and Clarence to Bugis Street to buy stuffs cant believe i made friends with such person....
WATCH THE HAND! =D
ASS GROPER!! D=
Serious People =D
Guess we got bored in the train.
ERIC STRIKES TERROR!
-Eric
Friday, October 10, 2008, 1:31 AM
New Things Discovered.From Now On,
Me And Eric Share A Blog!
Yay.
If The Post Ends With,
"-Clarence"
Its My Post.
If It Ends With
"-Eric"
Its Eric's!
Simple.
Edited*
Issac Now Shares The Blog Too!
So If It Ends With
"-Issac"
Its Issac's Post.
Saturday, October 04, 2008, 3:49 PM
"Human"I did my best to notice
When the call came down the line
Up to the platform of surrender
I was brought, but I was kind
And sometimes I get nervous
When I see an open door
Close your eyes
Clear your heart
Cut the cord
Are we human
Or are we denser?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answer
Are we human
Or are we denser?
Pay my respects to grace and virtue
Send my condolences to good
Give my regards to soul and romance
They always did the best they could
And so long to devotion
You taught me everything I know
Wave good bye
Wish me well
You've gotta let me go
Are we human
Or are we denser?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answer
Are we human
Or are we denser?
Will your system be alright
When you dream of home tonight?
There is so message we're receiving
Let me know is your heart still beating
Are we human
Or are we denser?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answer
You've gotta let me know
Are we human
Or are we denser?
My sign is vital
My hands are cold
And I'm on my knees
Looking for the answer
Are we human
Or are we denser?
Are we human
Or are we denser?
Are we human
Or are we denser?
-The Killers
New Song. The Killers, Has Always Been My Favorite Band. I Guess The Songs Just Spoke Too Much About My Life. Maybe We're All Deeper Than We Knew We Could Be.
Well, Went To Study With Eric And Janice Yesterday. Its Was Fun, Gay And Unbelievably A Huge Waste Of Time. Expect That Coming From Me When Its Two More Days To My Next Exam Papers.
How Gay.
Eric When He Was Young! =D
Thursday, October 02, 2008, 8:02 PM
Moving On And Pursuing Life.I'm So Unsure Of What I Want. Some Messed Up Boy I Am.
Really Moody Now Days, Almost Letting A Tear Drop Just By Thinking.
Maybe I'm Just Weak, I Just Can't Take It All.
"Living Life As It Has Become."
"I Can't Take It."
Wednesday, September 24, 2008, 6:30 PM
There Used To Be Huge Clear Lines Of Who I Was, Who I Wanted To Be. But As I Grew, These Clear Lines Started To Fade, Until All Of It Had Disappeared. Now I'm More Lost Than Ever, Not Sure Of Who I Was Or Am Right Now. But Sometimes I Wonder How I Became Like This. Was It Experience, Or Was I Just Growing Up? And Other Times I Feel So Fake, It Felt As If I, Who Once Clung Onto The Belief That We Are Born To Be Who We Are, That Deceiving Ourselves Was Only For The Hopeless.
I Believed That I Had Became Hopeless. That No One Would Ever Have Liked Me For Who I Was. I Believed That I Could Only Pretend To Be Someone I Was Not, Just To Feel Accepted. To Just Make Someone Care. I Had To Be What I Once Thought Was Pathetic.
But Some Believed That It Was Change, And Change Was Inevitable, It Was A Part Of Growing Up. But Sometimes I Think That We Never Knew Who We Are, That Nothing Is Real Or Fake. We Simply Never Knew.
Sunday, September 21, 2008, 11:23 PM
"Hallelujah"Well I heard there was a secret chord
that David played and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do ya?
Well it goes like this :
The fourth, the fifth, the minor fall and the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah
Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah...
Well your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew ya
And she tied you to her kitchen chair
She broke your throne and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah
Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah...
(Yeah but) Baby I've been here before
I've seen this room and I've walked this floor, (You know)
I used to live alone before I knew ya
And I've seen your flag on the marble arch
and love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah...
Well there was a time when you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show that to me do ya
But remember when I moved in you
And the holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah
Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah
Hallelujah...
Maybe there's a God above
But all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew ya
And it's not a cry that you hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelu...
Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelu...
Hallelujah Hallelujah Hallelujah
Hallellllluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuujjjaahhhh...
- Jeff Buckley
Died In His 30's. Had One Of The Most Beautiful Voices I've Heard.
Saturday, September 20, 2008, 10:26 PM
"Even If All The People In The World Was In The Same Room As Me, I'd Still Feel Alone. "Shes Always Been One Who Puts You Down Before You Even Start, Compliments You When You Succeed, And When You Fail, She Tells You The Most Useless Things In The World Just To Piss You Off.
How Indifferent.
Insensitively Alike Everyone Else.
But That Only Goes On In The Head Of This Overthinker, One Who Just Keeps Thinking The Wrong Things Over And Over Again.
My Fault Right?
Friday, September 12, 2008, 11:04 PM
"And when you come back in from nowhereDo you ever think of me?
And I've got nothing on you baby
But I always said I try
Let me show you how much I care"
I'm A Loner Once Again. But I'll Be Okay, Cause I Know I'm Not Normal. With These Beautiful Strange Eyes That Have Seen The Ugliest Things, And A Heart That No Longer Grieves.
Monday, September 08, 2008, 7:38 PM
How Many More Seconds To First?Its No Wonder, I Never Win.
Whats Worse? Having Never Been Close,
Or Being Close But Never Being Able To Touch It?
I Swear To God, If Vampires Ever Came To My House,
They Did Run In Fear. Fear Of My Silverware.
And He Told Me "Losing Was A Part Of Winning."
And I Said "I'm A Big Winner."
"Tomorrow Repeats Its Depressing And Agonizing Self Again."
Tuesday, September 02, 2008, 8:03 PM
I Know I'm Sad, Up To The Point I Get Depressed. I Can Feel All The Hurt, All The Confusion And All The Hate. But I Can No Longer Cry Anymore, I've Cried Too Much. It Feels Like An Eternity Every Night, Which Makes It Even Harder To Wake. I Can't Forget What I Know, Nor Can I Forgive, As This Sensitive And Negative Mind Of Mine Never Lets Me. How Did I Become So Messed Up?
How Do I Release My Emotions Now?
When You Can No Longer Cry, Whats There Left To Do But Laugh?
God. Please Bring Me Back. Back To The Time When Living Seems So Wonderful. When Every Reason Could No Longer Be Simplified. Pretending, Thats What I'm Doing Now And That Is What There Is Left To Do. Maybe I'm Desperate For Someone To Hold, But If You Were In My Shoes, Then Maybe You Would Understand That I Have My Troubles.
Monday, September 01, 2008, 7:37 PM
Met up With My Primary School Friends Recently. Some Changed, Some Din't. Funny, Its So Comfortable To Hang Out With Them Only After We're Split Up. Guess The Stress Of Being A Satisfactory Friend Was Less. Went to Play Badminton With Amanda Today, It Was Fun! Never Been As Loose As That for Awhile. There Was A Very Nice Breeze. =)Guess There Are Still Things I Can't Say, Huh?
Oh Sweet Innocence, Where Have You Gone?
Wednesday, August 27, 2008, 9:12 PM
"We're searching for a reason of existence. With our own strength, because maybe the truth is that there's no reason for life from the very beginning. Everyone hopes and tries so hard to find a reason of existence. The reason of birth, of staying with someone, of existence, believing we have to find them all with our own hands. Like finding a place for ourselves in dreams, in jobs, in people. The reasons we conclude may be indefinite and fragile. We may lose it too, but even so, we want a reason. As long as I'm alive, I want it too. If possible, I want to find a reason of existence within a person, within someone."- Furuba (Fruits Basket)
Genius. The Artist Of This Manga Sure Put Alot Of Thought About What Teenage Readers Like Me Would Wonder About. At The Same Time Its Answering Our Doubts, And Also An Amazing Story. I Love FURUBA! =DD
Tuesday, August 19, 2008, 5:51 PM
Well, I'm Going To Participate In Every School Activity I Can From Now. Why? Cause I Want To Be Occupied. Cause I Feel That My Life Is Being Wasted Away. Well I Guess To Me, I Find That There Is So Much More I Can Make Out Of Life Than Just Rotting Away. And Even Though Jian Hao Was Trying So Hard to Convince Me To Not Join Next Year's SYF For Drama As There Was Someone Particular Also Taking Part In It, I'll Still Go. Thats Mostly Because He Accidentally Said That "You Would Rather Regret Joining Then To Regret That You Never Had Joined." Hahas, The Next Thing He Said Was "Shit!!" Though, He Din't Realise He Was Encouraging Me. =DSometimes I'm A Little Depressed,
Not Because Of What They Did,
But Rather Because Of This Mind,
That Never Makes It Easy To Forget.
Sunday, August 17, 2008, 3:02 PM
"Better Days"And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cause I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And designer love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these words
And sing out loud
Cause everyone is forgiven now
Cause tonight's the night the world begins again
I need someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child who saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them
So take these words
And sing out loud
Cause everyone is forgiven now
Cause tonight's the night the world begins again
I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
So take these words
And sing out loud
Cause everyone is forgiven now
Cause tonight's the night the world begins again
Cause tonight's the night the world begins again
-Goo Goo Dolls.
Love This Song. If Only Everyone Loved It too, Then The World Would Finally Become A Better Place.
Friday, August 15, 2008, 11:31 PM
Your Depression Level: 72% |
 You seem to have moderate depression. Your symptoms are bad enough that they're effecting your everyday life. You would benefit greatly from professional help. |
The One Below Is Eric's.
Your Depression Level: 36% |
 You may be depressed. While you can be moody, your moods generally fall within the range of normal. It's up to you to decide if you're depressed... or if you're simply having a bad week. |
Thats Just Scary... =/
Why Should We Be Stuck Here,
Wondering So Aimlessly,
Lets Just Say What We Wanna Say,
Especially When We Live Such Odd Lives.
Monday, August 11, 2008, 6:06 PM
Yup, New Post!And It's Not About National Day At All, Guess I'm Not That Patriotic. =D
Well I Went To A Chalet. Its Was Fun, Fun. I'm Still Kinda High. No, I Don't Drink. You Wear Red Underwear! Okay, Too Random... Whee~
OMG, its a mirror that reflects! =DD
Couldn't Sleep, So I Put A Stuffed Dog On My Cousin's Head! =PP
Me And My Cousin! =)
Wednesday, August 06, 2008, 8:29 PM
Well I Did My Helm Project Yesterday! Woo~ Lazy To Type About It So I'll Just Post Some Pictures.Relient K Today!
Hahas, This really looked Like I Stuck My Finger. =D
Just Damn Lame.
Okay, We Got Kinda Bored.
Titanic Remake Went WRONG! =X
Top Of The World! Soooo Freeeee~
Yay, I finally got A Real Domo! =DD
Jump! =)
Kick Him Already. =P
Ran Outtda Things to Cover.
Hes Got A Crush! =D
And I'll Keep Trying,
Trying To Forget.
But I Know Thats Not Possible,
And I Know Thats Too Bad.
Monday, July 28, 2008, 4:53 PM
Lots Of Things Are Happening Now Days. Went BB Cares Like About 2 Weeks Ago, And All I Did Was Ushering While The Others Went On Some Hot Air Balloon! BORING! Also Went To Library With Joey, Irfan And Lihui To Discuss About The Debate Thats Comming Up. And I Recently Realized A Certain She Is Participating Too! Well Its Gonna Be Hell Awkward! =/Started To Listen To Keane Again.
I Won't Be A Gentleman,
Simply Cause I'm Not,
And I'll Never Change I Guess,
Cause I'm Trying To Keep Me Real.
Thursday, July 17, 2008, 4:33 PM
"You Only Give The Feeling Like You're A Good Friend."Well, Is That What You Really Think?
I Don't Want That.
I Want None Of that.
I Rather Be Closer Then Close To Many.
Is It The Way I Talk?
The Way I Dress?
I Wanna Change,
But I Still Wanna Be Me.
Should I Frown,
Become Colder To Others,
Just To Show I'm Serious.
To Let You Feel The Romance,
I Want You To Feel?
I Wanna Be The One Loved,
Rather Than Being The One Cared.
Does It Take A Million Changes,
Just To Get You By My Side.
Oh Silly Me.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008, 9:37 PM
Well Alot Of Things Happened. Had some Inspiration, Encouragement, Advice, Fun And Some Disappointments.Well I Found A Book Today.
Its A Picture Book. (Ohhhhhh...)
See! (Okay...)
Opps! Wrong Photo. (Oh My Gosh!!!)
Well, That Was Obscene. =/
Aniwayz, I Found The Book Pretty Inspiring.
Its Tittled "The Blue Day Book"
Everybody Has Blue Days.
These Are Miserable Days When you Feel Lousy,
Grumpy,
Lonely,
And Utterly Exhausted.
Days When You Feel Small And Insignificant,
When Everything Seems Just Out Of Reach.
You Can't Rise To The Occasion.
Just Getting Started Seems Impossible.
On Blue Days You Can Become Paranoid That Everyone Is Out To Get You.
(This Is Not Always Such A Bad Thing.)
You Feel Frustrated And Anxious,
Which Can Induce A Nail-Biting Frenzy
That Can Escalate Into A Triple-Chocolate-Mud-Cake-Eating Frenzy In An Blink Of An Eye!
On Blue Days You Feel Like You're Floating In An Ocean Of Sadness.
You're About To Burst Into Tears Any Moment And You Don't Even Know Why.
Ultimately, You Feel Like You're Wandering Through Life Without Purpose.
You're Not Sure How Much Longer You Can Hang On,
And you Feel like Shouting, "Will Someone Please Shoot Me!"
It Doesn't Take Much To Bring On A Blue Day.
You Might Just Wake Up Not Feeling Or Looking Your Best,
Find Some New Wrinkles,
Put On A Little Weight,
Or Get A Huge Pimple On Your Nose.
You Could Forget Your Date's Name
Or Have An Embarrassing Photo Published.
You Might Get Dumped, Divorced, Or Fired,
Make A Fool Of Yourself In Public,
Be Afflicted With A Demeaning Nickname,
Or Just Have A Plain Bad Hair Day.
Maybe Work Is A Pain In The Butt.
You're Under Major Pressure To Fill Someone Else's Shoes,
Your Boss Is Picking On You,
And Everyone In The Office Is Driving You Crazy.
You Might Have A Splitting Headache,
Or A Slipped Disk,
Bad Breath,
A Toothache,
Chronic Gas,
Dry Lips,
Or A Nasty Ingrown Toenail.
Whatever The Reason You're Convinced That Someone Up There Doesn't Like You.
Oh What To Do, What to Dooo?
Well, If You're Like Most People, You'll Hide Behind A Flimsy Belief That Everything Will Sort Itself Out.
Then You'll Spend The Rest Of Your Life looking Over Your Shoulder,
Waiting For Everything To Go Wrong All Over Again.
All While Becoming Crusty And Cynical
Or A Pathetic, Sniveling Victim.
Until You Get So Depressed That you Lie Down And Beg The Earth To Shallow You Up
Or, Even Worse, Become Addicted To Billy Joel Songs.
This Is Crazy, Because You're Only Young Once
And You're Never Old Twice.
Who Knows What Fantastic Things Are In Store Just Around The Corner?
After All, The World Is Full Of Amazing Discoveries,
Things You Can't Even Imagine Now.
There Are Delicious, Happy Sniffs
And Scrumptious Snacks To Share.
Hey, You Might End Up Fabulously Rich
Or Even Become A Huge Superstar( One Day ).
Sounds Good, Doesn't It?
But Wait There's More!
There Are Handstands
And Games To Play
And Yoga
And Karaoke
And Wild, Crazy, Bohemian Dancing.
But Best Of All, There's Romance.
Which Mean Long Dreamy Stares,
Whispering Sweet Nothings,
Cuddles,
Smooches,
More Smooches,
And Even More Smooches,
A Frisky Love Bite Or Two,
And Then, Well, Anything Goes.
So How Can You Find That Blissful
"Just Sliding Into A hot Bubble Bath" Kind Of Feeling?
It's Easy.
First Stop Slinking Away From All Those Nagging Issues.
Its Time To Face The Music.
Now, Just Relax. Take Some Deep Breaths
(In Through The Nose And Out Through The Mouth).
Try To Meditate If You Can.
Or Go For A walk To Clear Your Head.
Accept The Fact That you'll Have To Let Go Of Some Emotional Baggage.
Try Seeing Things From A Different Perspective.
Maybe You're Actually The One At Fault.
If Thats The Case, Be Big Enough To Say You're Sorry
(Its Never Too Late To Do This).
If Someone Else Is Doing The Wrong Thing,
Stand Up Tall And Say, " That's Not right And I Won't Stand For It!" Its Okay To Be Forceful.
(Its Rarely Okay To Blow Raspberries.)
Be Proud Of Who You Are,
But Don't Lose The Ability To Laugh At Yourself.
(This Is Alot Easier When You Associate With Positive People.)
Live Everyday As If It Were Your Last, Because One Day It Will Be.
Don't Be Afraid To Bite Off More Than You Can Chew.
Take Big Risks.
Never Hang Back. Get Out There And Go For It.
After All, Isn't That What Life Is About?
I Think So Too. =)
Tuesday, July 15, 2008, 6:36 PM
Happy Birthday To Me,Happy Birthday To Me,
Happy Birthday To Myself,
And I'm One Day Late.
Some Happy Moments,
Some Not So Happy. =/
TRAVIS For Me Today.
Well The SS-Virus Has Begun Spreading. Although I Took Part In It, I Was Forced By Terrorist Han Yang Sir And Hes Brigade. Soon The Virus Will Reach Its Target And All Humiliation Will Spread Loose... Noooooo. =(
Jean And Wanying Brought Me A T-Shirt Today. Thanks Alot. =)
The First Person To Wish Me Happy Birthday Is Joey!
Most Accurate Person To Wish Me Happy Birthday Is Zulaikha!
Last Person To Wish Me A Happy Birthday Is Eugene.
Another Call,
Another Time,
Another Tear,
But I'll Be Fine.
Sunday, July 06, 2008, 3:26 AM
You Are 64% Emo |
 While you may not be completely emo, you have a sensitive, deep, troubled soul. |
Got Bored, Decided To Do Some Lame Quiz. I'm Moderately Emo I Guess. =/
Friday, July 04, 2008, 9:35 PM
I Blew It. Something Done That Went Soo Wrong. Oh And I'm Sorry, for Everything, To have To Feel This Shit That I'm Feeling. And Lots Of Thanks To All My Friends, Thanks For nothing. I Can't Help But Feel sorry for Myself, Just Couldn't Keep it To Myself Could I? Damn... Still Having To Add Those Low-Life Bitches To Make My Day.Tuesday, July 01, 2008, 10:06 PM
Went To Hay Dairies Goat farm today To Do The Videography For The HELM Project. Felt All Giddy And I Also Felt Like Puking As I Only Ate So little. =/
A baby goat! =)
Jian Hao! =P
After That I Went To Accompany Eric To his Dental Appointment All The Way At Sommerset, We Were Soooo Bored! We Even Made Lame Videos. Brought A Watch Too! =)
Me And Eric On Train! =D
Swuai Eric! D=
The New Watch! Yeaman!
Thursday, June 26, 2008, 5:49 PM
Don't Know Why, But I Suddenly Fell In Love With Good Charlotte. Feels Like I'm Starting To Depress. =/
Sighhhh.......
Wrote A Short Poem Today.
Got Inspired By What Happens In Vegas.
Most People Spend
Most Of Their Lives,
Just Trying To Be
Perfect In The Perspectives Of Others.
I'm Just Gonna Write Some Random Things That Happened,
Sometime During The Holidays I Met up With Eric And....
STYLED HIS HAIR! ZOMG!
And It Did Not Turn Out Bad At All! REALLY!
See! I'm Sooooo Good At This! =P
Made Eric Take An Emo Photo. It Was Very Difficult to Stop Him From Laughing. =D
Hmm, Fringe Got Cut Again. =(
Thats About It.
Friday, June 20, 2008, 9:49 PM
Camp Was Hell. It Really Was. I've Almost Had No Sleep, Still Had To Be Mosquito Food. Walked An Unbelievable Amount Of Distance. More Exercise Than I Would Do In 4 Months. Woo~ Just Glad Its Over.
This Is A Photo Of A Cute Baby Quail.
I Killed One. =(
HanYang Sir Said This, "Don't You Feel Like A Man Now?" Right After I Killed A Quail.
For I moment I Just Wanted To Shout At Him And Say, "Must We Kill A Something To Be A Man!?!"
My Bulky Bag That I Brought To Camp.
This Is For Myself To Reflect On, So You May Not Understand It :
A Sudden Sadness Gripped My Heart As I Heard Her Voice, Tears Filled My Eyes Before I Knew It. Seems Like It Took Two Days Away, To Make Me Realise What They Meant To Me. It Was The First Time In Two Years Since I Cried So Badly, So Uncontrollably. How Could I Hate Them? All They Ever Did Was Try And Try Again, They Never Gave Up. But I Am Free Now, For I Have Felt The Guilt. The Guilt I Yearned To Feel For So Long.
Thursday, June 12, 2008, 1:16 AM
So Sick,Of Everything,
And Everyone,
That Loves You More Than Me.
Jealously, Should Not Be An Emotion That I Should Feel. I Am Lucky, Believing In That Is What I Should Be Doing. But Its Not Easy To Think Like That All The time. =/
Saturday, June 07, 2008, 1:58 AM
Went To Ryan's Birthday Party A Few Days Ago. Which We Went To Mac Afterwards, And There Was This Group Kranji People going "Bom-Bom Chuckie!". Oh God, Linda And Luting Started Shouting Copying And Shouting "Bom-Bom Chuckie!". It Was SOOO Humiliating. =/
Drunk Drinking Root-Beer! =)
I'm Beyond Smoking, I'm Smoking Poki Sticks! D=
The Girls On The Bus Back Home.
A Random Photo Of Me In The Past.
Look At Me Now.